I Took A Break From Writing, Even Though I Didn’t Want to.

Sometimes Writing And The Pressures Of Life Can Overwhelm Us.

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On Medium I hear this message alot.

“Writing everyday can improve your earnings.”

While this can be true for many writers here, we still need breaks.

There has been a lot of pressure on the home front recently. I am decorating and trying to prepare a room for my daughter’s children, trying to maintain my studies and my home, and I am caring for my husband and supporting him with his disabilities.

Some days, it feels like the days just tick by, leaving me wondering where time to look after myself goes.

There is myself, my daughter and my husband living here. However, my daughter is having a baby and she has been limited by pregnancy pain, and my husband has disabilities that limit what he can do.

I don’t have others around me who can help me. I do the majority of things single-handedly.

If I am truthful, I am also a very independent woman who likes doing things by herself. I know when to ask for help where I need it, but living away from my family for over ten years has taught me to be strong and independent.

I can only remain strong and independent by accepting that I sometimes need a break in order to mentally refresh and take care of myself physically.

Over the last few weeks I have been arguing with myself. Normally, I have a rule when it comes to taking breaks from my work when I need to, but recently it started to feel like I was sinking into a deep pit of dispair as my work was going downhill, and I was unable to find time to write or even read.

It ended in tears; then I suddenly realized that I was trying to do too much at once.

I came back to Medium a few days ago only to see my stats had lowered here and on another site that I write on. I don’t usually worry, but they were lower than they had ever…